“He is the Father, and we are His children. Most good ideas are simple, and this concept was the keystone of the new and triumphant arch through which we passed to freedom” (p. 62)
In the personal story Women Suffer Too in The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, the writer discusses her miraculous discovery of freedom. After experiencing a personal crisis that sent her into rage and anger, she turned to drink. Drinking as vengeance punishes no one but ourselves. Yet many confuse righteous anger and indignation as justification and cause for relapse. Then, looking at The Big Book she read “We cannot live with anger”. Just then she had a spiritual experience, “I wasn’t trapped. I wasn’t helpless. I was free…this was freedom! Freedom from anger and fear, freedom to know happiness and love.”
Looking at our reasons for why we drank and used drugs, most of us conclude two answers. First, because we liked the effects produced by drugs and alcohol. Second, because those effects included some sense of freedom. At least, there was freedom in the beginning. Life can be challenging and full of suffering. Without knowing the pleasure of faith and freedom in God, we sought that escape in other places. Substances like drugs and alcohol, when consumed, produce pleasure. Experiencing such euphoric feelings makes us think we are experiencing freedom. Coming to that conclusion is logical when we look at the basics. From pain and suffering to sudden pleasure and euphoria. Many of us can remember feeling it for the first time and immediately desiring more– more pleasure, more euphoria, more freedom.
Toward the end we were no longer free. In fact, we were frustrated. Our substances of choice which once brought us unsolicited joy now brought us an even worse pain and suffering. Compared to the lives we lived before we became addicted, we realize now, we might not have had it so bad. Trapped in the cycle of craving, using, dependence, tolerance, and withdrawal, we become slaves to drugs and alcohol. We were no longer free. We were fooled by false gold.
Freedom in recovery is the opposite of all that. We are promised a new freedom and a new happiness. It starts with leaving drugs and alcohol behind, then seeking a relationship with a God of our understanding.
The Center for Life Change focuses on helping recovering addicts find their place in God’s light so that the ongoing process of sober living that comes after rehab is long and successful.
Let us help you set up a life free of substance abuse.